So I have no pictures whatsoever to put up and nothing interesting has been happening to me. Interesting enough to blog about, that is. I just didn't want to abandon this blog because I've promised not to haha.
Well last night was Nat's party in her pretty darn cool condo. Sad that Steph couldn't make it, I hope she pulls through the.. School Crisis thingy. Adel Cal Nat Wallace (and Sister) and I were having a whale of a time in the karaoke room. So cool right, a KTV in the condo hahaha. We sang BSB. Ok I will not use the collective term 'We' because I didn't know half the lines of Backstreet Boys songs. Nat is Backstreet Girl, alongside Calista. Adel was "taxidriver-in-Calcutta" girl.
I know lately I have not been a good friend to many of my friends. I've not yet mastered the skill of maneuvering my way around certain people. I know for a fact that some things I have done have caused unduly bewilderment and astonishment from many people. But I would just like to appeal to all my friends to hold their tongues, and stop judging me. I've talked shit about so many people, I know it when people talk rot about me. Some people are open books to begin with. I really wish to get rid of this barrier between us, this constant judging that we do about each other based on one-off incidents. Plus, it's really my life. Why does it bother people that I do certain things different from what I used to do, "Stella has changed", etc etc, if I treat you all the same? It doesn't change anything does it.
Apparently not lah, in some people's opinions.
Obviously, this is not to say that I'm faultless. I admit that I have a very different attitude to life than previously. Maybe some people cannot agree with my shift in viewpoints. I don't know. All I'm saying is that I am trying my very best at this point in time. If anyone doesn't see my effort then I think there's nothing left to say. I'm truly sorry. And I'm truly sorry that I don't cherish our friendship enough to change further.
Disclaimer though, I still love my friends alot. Old and new.
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stell, no matter what. you know i LUBXCHU. you don't have to do things to 'keep' your friends or to please us and don't ever feel that you owe us and explanation for anything you do, because you don't. that's what friends're for. to be here even if you've changed because we're supposed to be supportive. if you want to be judged, then just go and find a bunch of strangers to do that for you. but i promise you, i'll try my bestest best not to judge though it may be hard at times and to just be here for you. because, you read me like a book afterall and still love me (:
jiawen here! for being my friend believing me being there for me hanging out with me through the good&bad times although you know how some people feel about me what they say about me & what ive done to others i know you're good enough & deserving of the friendship & i wont judge you, since im so judge-able yet you never did judge me (haha im right.. right!) you never& btw, change too, can be good you know. aye palsie you've been down.. cheer up with you its a week to your birthday how can you be so sad .. you need to start investing in a sex life! (ok la kiddin bt the last part jiejie)
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