How many miles to Babylon?

Talking to my pal who says she is suffering in Hong Kong right now. How come I don't believe suffering is possible when you're in one of the most capitalist places on earth? Okay we're forgetting many other places here but.. The most capitalist place closest to home. Is that better?

On the food,

the real Dorian Gray says:
i HATE chinese food
the real Dorian Gray says:
not like i love jap
the real Dorian Gray says:
but desperate times call for desperate measures..

Sidetracking aside (ha ha I'll not even say anything in my defense), there hasn't been much goings-on in the land of the very uncivilised over here. For one, Operation Small Appetite has not made much progress - what with the carbs galore and lack of mobility. Secondly, my visa is not done STILL after months of preparing and submitting the documents. Thirdly, I am losing the ability to converse in proper English. Okay that's about it.

Wah you like it when you are all the way across the globe (maybe a little dramatisation here but you know what I'm saying) and your HK pal says this,

the real Dorian Gray says:
u nv tell me when u come back
the real Dorian Gray says:
damn alot to gossip la my god
the real Dorian Gray says:
really ALOT

Thanks a lot Jiawen!

God Only Knows What I'd Be Without You

Wah I've been watching Big Love. It's damn damn good! I love it. Noone asked, but it's okay. Take it from me, it's good. Should it ever show in Singapore (I doubt but we never know), you guys must see every episode okay. Finally I watch something not so trashy. D-uh.

Can anyone come visit me? I mean I'm here.. 2 flights and um, 2500 miles away (I checked). Not so far lah, I just spoke to Ong my 80s Queen, she says she may want to come over to see my humble seaside town! HAHA screwed up there isn't anything to do here that is to her liking. Well, I'm typing away as if she'd never read this. Anyway as I was saying! Come visit me leh. Accommodation and food = Gratis. Okai?

As I was saying to my pal just now, sometimes someone close to turns so nasty and spiteful and vengeful, you don't even feel annoyed anymore. But afraid of what's consuming her. I don't know what I'm rambling about. Okay I'm all talk no act.. No pictures still, my dad is guarding his precious camera in his study downstairs. Oh and I only have 160,000 rupiah to my name. How to spell S-A-D man.

No prizes for guessing which close family member I'm talking about.

Lady Madonna

As much as I'd love to send emails to people (hey Tabi!!), I can't, because my email account is giving me severe problems! Plus I have no camera to take pictures of my hair with. Maybe I'll be a camwhore soon (hello Jiawen!) and post pictures of my daily tasks here so you first world dwellers can gain an insight on my little town.

Well so what can I say? I have been going for Chinese classes, can't remember if I've ever said this before. Chinese sucks balls can! I'd initially forgotten how to write "newspaper" in Chinese I think the teacher wanted to kill me. I'm struggling okai. Oh before I forget, Siti I know you read this! Hello.

Okay sorry boring updates no pictures. I'll update soon enough when I manage to steal my papa's camera.
(my sister is still killing me being herself)

Welcome to the Turd World

Hola pals of the First world! I arrived not too long ago here.. And already I feel so bored. The boredom is not what kills me, if you really must know. This is just a promise-less land! You've heard of the American dream (befitting my decision to go there) and Singapore Dreaming (the movie). Haven't heard of the Indonesian Dream have you? This is a land ruled by oversensitive mothers and the hopes of the offspring marred by traditions and bootlicking the extended family members. This is how it is.

Well first of all, I hope everything is fine in Singapore! I hope people email me now and then tell me progress.. Or even regress.. And digress. My family has stopped nothing short of stressing me up.. So I really miss my pseudo life in Singapore really. Ah I'm going to be away for quite long this time it seems.

So some of you may have heard about my friend who got pregnant over here. She's given birth! Woowee it's a boy (I think) and I'm visiting her tomorrow. When I think about it properly, it's not so sad anymore. I mean, she's 20 this year after all. Old enough to be a mother?

I'm not quite sure if anyone follows.. But anyway keep a lookout I think I'll be posting here soon.

Singapore Dreaming

I'm enjoying the free internet at the airport right now.. After spending my last penny on duty free shopping and magazines. I am leaving for Jakarta in uh, 1 hour. Bit early today cause damn kancheong - runs in the family.

Anyway the past few days spent in Sing were great cos I got to catch up with all my friends.. Who matter. Yknow what I mean la. Aiya fuck I don't know how to say what I want to say, except that I will miss you all a lot! It's so awkward to be professing my love for everyone. So this is the best I can do.

Skype me my pals, or text my Singapore number.

It all keeps adding up

Is contradicting yourself an occurence you find yourself in many many times? I ask, and I say this because yesterday someone reminded me that we are friends to ease our own guilt. Aiya I don't really know how to articulate my thoughts into proper words to be typed here.. Well SJ and I could start our own poetic endeavours here, I suppose?

There are many things that seem contrived but yet it still fills the gap somehow. So I ask myself whether it's good enough that things still work out although the manner in which they are achieved are a bit unnatural. Perhaps so. Better to fake it than to not bother right? Delusion is my surname..

Serves me right if karma bites me in the ass sometime soon, too much unhappiness, doom and gloom I revel in these days.. Poetic justice. But of course, no need for such emotional and non sequitur manner of blogging now, is there. Nothing follows! I think noone understands what I am saying right now.

Eh what can be done to reverse Paris Hilton's droopy eyelid?